L.O.V.E.

one of my favorites:  love... we think about it, sing about it, dream about it, lose sleep worrying about it. when we don't have it, we search for it; when we discover it, we don't know what to do with it; when we have it, we fear losing it. it is the constant source of pleasure and pain. but we can't predict which it will be from one moment to the next. it is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, impossible to live without.

bugs and bravery.

sooooo, i had this really great analogy while i was taking a nap today. i have no idea why this came into my head, but i figured i'd write it down, even if everyone thinks it's stupid. i kind of think it's stupid.

anyway, i was thinking about bugs... for some odd reason. then i started thinking about the life of a bug, and it's depressing in a way. most bugs don't live that long. maybe for like, a day. and i just couldn't imagine being born and then going out into the world knowing that i was going to die almost instantly. what if we did that as humans? if we knew that we were only going to live a day or two maximum, what would we do with that life?

bugs don't really have a choice, seeing as they go out and get food or water and return to their buggy home. and all this living one day stuff got me thinking that bugs are probably the bravest creatures on the planet. they have to be. i mean, they go out into the human world knowing (or maybe not knowing) that all their buggy friends have been killed by humans, and they do it anyway. if i saw all my friends dying in a matter of seconds, i'm telling ya i wouldn't be facing the world at all.

these bugs are brave, man.
the end.

the way you walk, way you talk, way you say my name...

...it's beautiful, wonderful, don't you ever change.

but things are changing for me. i leave for mississippi state in three weeks, and to say the least i have been very excited to move and start new things. but lately it's been on my mind that some things might change that i don't want to.

i've started to really enjoy going to citychurch on sundays and have met some really wonderful people :)  i've noticed things in my life have started to change for the better, and the power of prayer is working wonderfully in my life. i want to stay committed to God and committed to becoming a better person--but i can't do it alone. i'm hoping things will only get better when i go away, but it's hard to think so sometimes. we'll see :)

i've had this great little feeling in my stomach for a little while now. i like it.